sapul!

jaw down the floor
my body on halt
you came raging
came crashing
over me...

had no chance
to think or decide
had no choice
saw me in your eyes
in your eyes...

i am drenched
yet i want more
drown me again
crash into me again
again, again...

am i in trance?
loving this high
sudden bend of culture
stark change in me
for you, for us...

straight shot
right into my being
tumbling down
falling down
catch me...

dance with me
as i sing with you
sway with the wind
hear the lullabies
of my heart...

then you stopped

frosted heart
what went wrong?
where are you going?
don't leave me please
please don't...

blurry sight
smoke everywhere
water from my eyes
what did i do?
tell me...

i am confused
you are confused
is it someone else?
or other issues?
depart...

you left

had no chance
even to delay you
had no choice
but to wait in vain
i will wait...

in solitude
let me watch you
from afar
hear the lullabies
of my heart...

since i can't hold you
my little glances
bestow enough bliss
you were never mine
i know...


chung
060106

quite a dark day

cha: i dont knw... my days lately are gloomy and dark.
cha: i need some light.
chigo: hhm... you've yet to be illuminated..
cha: i wish the sandman will take me and let me linger forever in my dreams
chigo: to be illuminated by someone or by something?
chigo: if it is someone.... pray ka lang.
cha: and if it is something?
chigo: but if it is something.. am sure you'll get it one time soon..
chigo: sooner than you can say HAVAIANAS!
cha: i dnt know if it is a 'thing'.. but what i know is that its is in abstract form
chigo: hmmm.. unexplainable ata yang abstract form UNLESS i will be on your mind and heart to anlayze it..
cha: 'isip at puso di magkatagpo' -- cha
chigo: 'pero sa ibang bagay nagkakasundo' -- chigo
cha: rarely, my friend. one of them always has to give way
chigo: and it if there's no way they can give and take? where will they end up, my dear?
cha: yea.. a perennial mystery -- where do we go from here?
chigo: exactly!

up dharma down at MEG magazine

chigo: what can you say?
cha: sa?
chigo: sa naka sulat na article sa meg?
cha: ah un.. dko msyado dinibdib ung pag basa sa post pero.. obviously the writer's just doin his/her work. yes nagresearch sila pero they didnt went deeper.
chigo: ahh yah... exactly.
cha: kung baga superficial lang yung pagpapakilala nila sa udd. the way i see it.. they tried hard to achieve dreamy descriptions to match up with the others
cha: nanggaya lang ng look and feel. and for me, foul yung not crediting ean and carlos
chigo: i do felt that way too.
cha: haha actually was surprised dun sa mga sinabi ko ngayon.. diba sbi ko di ako masyado dinibdib tas nagflow nalang yung mga sinabi ko
chigo: hehe! it wasnt your heart who spoked. it was your mind.. i guess..
cha: no it was my heart not my mind
chigo: or both..
cha: yea both cguro..
cha: medyo wlang dating sakin ngayon mga bagay bagay.. iv read all the posts pero konti lng nireplyan ko.. pero if u ask me i can answer it, surprisingly, in a profound way

pagod na diwata

ipikit ang iyong mga mata
ibaling sa tahimik na aura
huminga ng malalim
at isipin ang kantang "we give in.."

by chigo for cha
25may06

tamad

gustong kumilos
ayaw gumalaw
daig ang namamalimos
nagaantay ng bulalakaw
ilang beses nang humikab
ilang beses nang kumurap
tinubuan na ng sapot
tinubuan na ng lumot

by chigo for cha
26may06

gig hoppin

sabi nga ni armi: 'ghaleng!'

solb na solb ang aking sabado. galing ng tugtugan nila.

MALUFET

ganadong ganado! si ean excited pumalo pati tuloy sa mabagalna OO, aba anlakas ng hampas! nakakawindang. si pol kahit maysipon (uminom ng ascorbic acid at juice, ok?) nakatugtog parinesp nung sa layag na. si los gusto ko agawin yung gitara moayaw mo kse bitawan eh haha sabi mo nga lahat ng gig masaya.si armi syempre magaling. pero bakit nagbingibingihan ka atanung sinabi kong more? haha. kidding.

SAGUIJO

galing ng line up. gasolina. happy meals. shiela and the insects, etc.of course, twisted halo. i also saw diego mapa dun. sila zach andaia. the dharma boys. nakalimutan ko na yung iba... basta masaya!

hands down talaga ko sa musika ng pinoy!
cha

My Fragmented Roadtrip

By Chigo

Recently, I went for a roadtrip from quezon city to angeles citypampanga. i brought my discman, cellphone, and my fragmented album.While at the bus at around 3:45pm bound to north express way, Iplaced, carefully, my fragmented cd in the discman and played it on.Started from the "india- esque" introduction of Layag, the view fromoutside the heat-stricken weather was eventually connected with thetune swayed in my ears. As if my eyes was electrifying some sort ofimaginary movements from the sound and simultaneously with theweather, envorinment, moments and the flow of the ride.Then here comes Track 2-Maybe. The bus swiftly gunned its speed flatof 90 kph and I feel it was going up. My eyes are locked on aseemingly endless flowing line of electrical wires. Black wiresuntangled and smoothly currents while the stead-fast "Maybe"collaborates intensely. As if I was chased by the wires.While the bus speeds slowly, the road went to slippery wet. It startedto rain. Again, followed by the lazy sound of "Lazy Daisy", the raindrops with coordination. From slow and crisp line of rain showers tothick and thundering drops as if we went on for a car wash. It wasrain heavier than I expected. We were at the boundery of Bocaue exit.The dim and dark moments of heavy pouring rain suddenly went from greyto off-white then ends to a sunshine-y day. We had just passed by thedark clouds above. Quite a long dark clouds possessing such rain.While enjoying to watch the remains of the rain in the window, washedaway by the speeding bus and the sunlight, the "chinese" preamble of"We give in sometimes" created a safe state of balance in my veins andcaught myself in "relax mode".Everytime Armi Millare do that key of D preface of "Oo", my musclesare geared up for another jazzy funk strokes. Nevertheless, Icontained myself and contented with the tappings of my hands from mylaps and short head bangs while the music was on. And of course, whatwas the use of my feet if I can't move it for the contagious beat of"Oo". I enjoyed the small minutes of instrumentals (Fragmented & Brokenglasses & screaming turtles. It can simply says "o pahinga na muna.""...the enemies of juuuuune..." Still in relaxed-mode, this track 7slows the flow of blood more. I glanced the setting sun on my farleft. But unfortunately, those people who seated on the left sidepulled down their curtains. It seems people are so unpleasantlyincontentented with the sun's raidiance these days. I couldn't blamethem. Two months of summer sun was indeed a very ghastly experience tothem. I caught a passanger exclaimed "Ibaba mo nga yan, ang init init e."Now came Sleeptalk. While listening, there was a word that caught upmy full attention. INFIDELITY. The word just got passed my memorycells that as if it was a key. It opened up a recent conversationbetween a very friend of mine who was in need of my counsel. A marriedman with one kid. Infidelity was a clear picture while listening tohis explainations. Infidelities... Infidelities... It distracts me. AmI also bound to have such infidelities when I get married? Pag agos. I can never forget this song. It was a respite song for meand my thesis1 a few months ago. On with the road, I'm thirty minutes away from my planned destinationplace. still the sun is thick. I can notice the windshields were driedfrom the fight against the thick rain earlier. Blended by theslick-stylish-funk-hypnotic sound of malikmata. I was definitely drawnby the mood. I momentarily thought about "someone". Someone from mypast and present. Then I closed my eyes.As soon as the prelude of"TheWorldIsOurPlaygroundAndWeWillAlwaysBeHome" came off the surface ofmy mind, slowly... slowly... I opened my eyes. I was thinking of myown playground on my early years. Make that six year old. As the songprogresses, I remembered someone again. She was onced my sunshine andmy occassional rain. The Bus came in a halt. I went forward to werethe entrance and exit of the bus were always located and I descendedbehind the bus door. Where do I go from here? keep playing... keep playing...I continued to walk from a very hot ray of sunlight. It was as if thesun was mad at me. It stinged my skin deeply. Well I did not care.After all, Hiwaga was on...Huwag limutin ang nakaraan.

Guys and Gals, share some of your stories with your albums lately!

muni muni

tumahimik

nakiramdam

natulala

nasaan na?

nariyan ka pa ba?

lumingon

kanan

kaliwa

taas

baba

nasaan na?

nariyan ka pa ba?

hingal

hikahos

hininga

naririnig ko

ang sigaw ng puso mo

nariyan ka pa ba?

napailing

di makita

pumikit

sa panaginip sumilip

bakit nariyan ka?

luha

langoy

titig

isip

ang iyong mga mata

bakit wala nang kislap?

ahon na

nalilito

baha

sa isip

nalulunood sa sariling luha

hintay

kapit

bilis

abutin

ililigtas kita

bakit lumalayo ka?

naghihintay

nagtataka

ano ba

nalulunod na

hayaan mong tulungan kita

tenga

makikinig

puso

uunawain

sabihin mo lang

kung paano matutulungan

nandito

ako

kahit

kailan

gusto kita sagipin

pero pilit kang lumalayo

ilabas

sama ng loob

hinanakit

tangis

eto na ang aking kamay

iabot mo na ang sa iyo





cha
050606

keso talks

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:13:25 PM): watyuthink of this: malakas maniwala ang manhid sa wala.

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:13:51 PM): tama ba intindi ko? na mas madaling maniwala ang mga taong wlang paniniwla?

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:14:33 PM): manhid ka lang naman e. pero aware ka dun sa pinaniniwalaan nila/mo.

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:14:50 PM): TAMA!

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:17:40 PM): pero meron din naman talagang ayaw nilang maniwala. kasi nag bubulag bulagan lang sila.

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:18:14 PM): hmm pede din,, pero prang mas gsto ka yan hehe

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:19:39 PM): share something with me, ms.cha... what would be that one thing you don't believe but it exists?

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:20:46 PM): hmm

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:22:02 PM): wla cguro..

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:23:13 PM): you dont believe in love at first sight? pero existing diba? hehe

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:23:19 PM): naahh... hehe.. subjective naman ang tingin ng tao sa love e..

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:23:58 PM): aaah pwede onga no. does it really exist? i dnt blv so

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:25:11 PM): hhmm... ask yourself po.. based on your past relationships.. does it really existed before?

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:25:20 PM): no

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:26:07 PM): e sa courtships? do you believe in courtship stage? and still that stage exist.

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:27:12 PM): i blv that everything starts w attraction. nt love at first sight. yes i blv in courtship

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:27:32 PM): ahh nice answer.

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:28:31 PM): Love is blind. do you believe in that saying?

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:30:38 PM): maybe.. mortal love is vague. sometimes, bcoz of 'love' we tend to bend our principles, beliefs, lifestyle, morals, values, etc... the clearest love is God love.

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:31:56 PM): ang galing. only a few people who answers that way when i asked them about love. saludo na ako sayo.. lab na kita! hahaha!! joke..

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:32:21 PM): pero kidding aside... yah. i believe in that. kaya nga God is Love and Love is God.

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:34:10 PM): hehe. steg. kht ganito ako. seryoso akong tao noh.

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:34:43 PM): exactly. i am pro-GOd

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:37:12 PM): haha! i've always known you as a light person outside and serious in the inside.

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:58:24 PM): share ko lang... lam mo ba.. nung bumili ako ng udd fragmented, yung acknowledgment ni polyap ang nabasa kong kakaiba!

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:59:15 PM): then i went to alabang town center gig para lang i commend personally yung sinulat niyang yun!!

so_n2him (5/4/2006 5:00:58 PM): onga sobra. kya nga among sa four, kay paul ako most drawn to

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:01:47 PM): exactly.

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:02:16 PM): ako mas humahanga ako dun sa way he writes his pieces. astig!

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:03:47 PM): kaya nga i was surprised to know na meron pa lang nakapansin nung acknowledgement niya na rather than me... and it was you.

so_n2him (5/4/2006 5:04:49 PM): yea sobra. mnsan nttwa nlng ko sa srili ko. kc halos araw araw ko bnbasa ung lyrics and credits nila. deciphering, disecting, reading between the lines, ung style ni armi and pol in writing, tone, feel.. lahat pinapansin ko

so_n2him (5/4/2006 5:06:37 PM): dmo npansin sa first tula ko.. sbi ko 'sana ako'y makata rin shet'.. tska ung sa 2nd 'nahahatak lapit pa para akong hinihila ng iyong mga talinhaga iyong sapantaha nais kong masilip laman ng puso't isip

so_n2him (5/4/2006 5:08:55 PM): gusto kong malaman ang mga storya sa mga sinulat nya

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:12:36 PM): yah! kasi every song has its own personal story..

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:13:19 PM): napapansin ko sa tula mo yun. pero gusto ko sayo manggaling yun confirmation

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:13:33 PM): mahirap kasing mag assume e.. hehe..

so_n2him (5/4/2006 5:13:48 PM): tama.

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:25:36 PM): sige.. out na muna ako ms.cha! thanks for that very intelectual chat kanina! i'll be expecting more of that tom. haha! anyway.. im glad to have known you. (cheeezzzy!) haha! but honest!

so_n2him (5/4/2006 5:26:37 PM): hmm.. hehe cge konti pa at pde ko na ishare ang blog ko syo!

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:27:35 PM): haha! okay.. pero i would still respect your decision about privacy. okay lang yung ganito.. step by step..

so_n2him (5/4/2006 5:27:47 PM): ayt!

embracing the dharma II

lasing
hinehele
himig ng pagibig
agos ng emosyon

lumulutang
lumilipad
sa tuwing naririnig
pulso ay pumipintig

adik na
walang sawa
sa bawat tugtog
panibagong karanasan

naghihintay
nag-aabang
pakulo ng banda
laging may sorpresa

millare

nanunuot
bumabalot
boses na rumaragasa
baka tamaan, humanda

malamig
bumubuhos
parang naliligo
sa apoy at yelo

tahimik
misteryosa
matipid sa salita
nangungusap na mata

luha
hiwaga
hikbi mo'y akin
tangis mo'y akin rin

yap

malalim
mausok
tunay na talentado
minsan mahirap matarok

pikit mata
damang dama
kapag tumutugtog
tumitindig ang balahibo

nahahatak
lapit pa
para akong hinihila
ng iyong mga talinhaga

iyong
sapantaha
nais kong masilip
laman ng puso't isip

mayor

hampas
hagupit
mga palong mabilis
halos walang mintis

naglalaho
sa hangin
kamay na matulin
di akalaing kayang gawin

musika
trabaho
dumadaloy sa iyong dugo
nahihilo umiikot nahihilo

hinay lang
kalma lang
ingatan ang katawan
para kang isang chubibo

tañada

naglalayag
lumalangoy
sisirin na ang dagat
gitara mong dumadaloy

harana
panatag
alingawngaw sa isip
hanggang sa pagtulog

sige lang
masaya
walang takot sumubok
mga eksperimentong tunog

kwento
diwa
naipapahiwatig
kahit walang salita

dharma

apat na mortal
pinagbuklod ng musika
ito ang kanilang tirahan
lumalabas sa bawat hininga

cha 050306