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bass lines

2006-09-04T23:57:00.000-07:00

a haiku

coming and throbbing
steady beats are burning me
throbbing and coming

dilaw na pakete

2006-09-03T23:13:00.000-07:00

(song for juicy fruit's rockoustics campaign)

maganda na sana ang panaginip
talak ni ermats biglang sumingit
haay sermon na naman ang bumungad
syet wala tuloy akong agahan!

kumapa-kapa sa aking bulsa
buti na lang may dilaw na pakete
ngumuya-nguya habang naglalakad
ito na ang agahan pansamantala

tumulak na ako papuntang opisina
nabanggit ko bang ako'y late na?!
nang nakasalubong ang aking crush
sakto sa putikan ako'y nadapa!

badtrip. malas.
bakit ba ganito? matino naman ako
sige ayos lang, nguya na lang
may dilaw na pakete naman akong kasama
sige ayos lang, nguya na lang
sige ayos lang, nguya lang

ako'y naghahanda nang magbayad sa jeep
hala! naiwan ko pala ang aking pitaka
baka patayin ako ni mamang driver!
eto na isa, dalawa, tatlo, talon na!

sa opisina, pinag-iinitan ng boss
kamukha ko daw ang taksil nyang asawa
mantsa ng kape umeksena naman sa'king damit
syet wala naman akong dalang pamalit

badtrip. malas.
bakit ba ganito? matino naman ako
sige ayos lang, nguya na lang
may dilaw na pakete naman akong kasama
sige ayos lang, nguya na lang
sige ayos lang, nguya lang

malas na kung malas
pero relaks lang
nakakapangit
pag laging mainit ang ulo

ayos lang. wala na akong pakialam
nguya lang, kasama ang dilaw na pakete
sige ayos lang, nguya na lang
sige ayos lang, nguya lang

ningas

2006-09-03T22:54:00.000-07:00

Translated by Esra

Blink by blink. Slowly.
I felt the soft brush
Of your feverish breath.
And each time your body touches,
I feel
The spread of venom devouring my senses.
I ain’t have complains,
Except for a subtle crick
I don’t think you heard it
Or you just remained oblivious of it.
At this point, I knew
That this is the effect of the cause I made.
And I have embraced the truth…
That you gave me life, so I can die.

-----------------------------------

Unti-unti. Dahan-dahan.
Nadama ko ang pagdampi
Ng hininga mong sakdal hapdi.
At sa bawat lapat ng katawan mo,
Naramdaman ko
Ang pagkalason ng buo kong pagkatao.
Hindi ako tutol,
Maliban sa mahinang pag-ingit
Na di mo yata narinig
O’ di mo man lang pinansin.
At sa puntong ito, tanggap ko
Na ito ang katuturan ng aking pag-iral.
At tanggap ko ang katotohanan…
Binuhay mo ako upang mamatay.

barya

2006-09-01T02:29:00.000-07:00

by chigo for diwata

abunuhan mo naman ako ng panahon
di ko kayang bumili ng pagkakataon
singilin ang kinabukasan
pautangin ang nakaraan
pagtuosin natin ang ating nararamdaman
kwentahin ang mga walang kwentang umaasa
barya ka lamng sa umaga
pagkakitaan ang kahinaan
kumuha ng lakas sa ewan
magnakaw ng bawat masasayang sandali
pagkat minsan lang sa buhay ang maging wagi
bugnot?
malungkot?
gusot?
nakasimangot?
tuod.

lick me

2006-09-01T02:27:00.000-07:00

a haiku by esra

go on, lick my wounds
take away the awful pain
heal me with your drool

tuldok

2006-08-23T02:00:00.000-07:00

by cha
082206

bakit hindi tumitigil ang pagtibok
pagtibok ng puso para sa iyo
bakit hindi tumitila ang mga luha
luhang daig ang buhos ng bagyo
marahil dahil may pag-asa pa
pag-asa na sana ay dumating
dumating na sana ang panahon
panahon na ako'y iibigin mo rin
ngunit mga luha ngayo'y mas mapait
mas mapait kumpara sa dati
ang kakarampot mong atensyon
atensyon na ngayon ay pinagdadamot
unti-unti, ikaw ay lumalayo
lumalayo hanggang di na maabot
maabot ka sana kahit sa isang sulyap
sulyap sa iyo, mapansin mo kaya?
kailan mapapagod ang aking puso
puso kong namimilipit sa sakit
sakit na dulot ng kawalan
kawalan ng linaw sa hinaharap
marahil kusa rin ito mapapagod
mapapagod din sa pagtibok, may wakas
wakas ng luha sa aking mga mata
mata na nakasaksi sa lahat ng pighati
kailan nga ba titigil ang kabaliwan
kabaliwan na tinatawag nilang pag-ibig
pag-ibig na walang dinulot kundi sakit
sakit na sana ay matuldukan.
matuldukan kailan? hindi ko alam

wala sa akin ang sagot.

kuno

2006-08-16T08:28:00.000-07:00

by cha
081606

paano mo nagawa ito?
ikaw na kagalang-galang,
pagkapita-pitagan. mga bulag
na mata'y laging nagkakandarapa
sa iyong mga utos dahil ikaw
ikaw ay disente at matino. isang
katangian na sa ating lipunan
ay salat.

bakit ka nagkaganyan?
ikaw na tinitingalang mambabatas
naninindigan sa batas ng lipunan
at sa kalangitan. laging humahanay
sa kung ano ang tama. katarungan
sa mga api at pagal.

anu ba ang nangyayari sa'yo?
ikaw na nagsilbing ehemplo
sa iyong mga anak. mga kamay
na humubog sa haligi ng
kanilang pagkatao. ngayon,
mga kamay na pumipiga ng
luha sa kanilang mata.

bakit ka ganyan?
lahat ng tikas at talino
mo, lahat ito pawang mga
kuno, peke, walang kwenta,
walang saysay. dahil hindi
ka pala tunay na lalake
gaya ng inisip ko

nakakatawa isipin
nahulog kami sa iyong alindog
nakakaiyak isipin
ikaw ang tatay ko

titig

2006-07-12T03:25:00.000-07:00

by chigo (from the compilations of "para kay diwata)

kada minuto
kumukurap ako
nakatingin sa malayo

nakangiti, sisimangot
maluluha, nabuburaot
unti-unting ibabangon ang sarili
sumisigaw ang kalooban
at di na magsisisi

mga bagong nakaraan
mga lumang kinabukasan
pilit kong inuunawaan
bakit ako nilisan

bukas, o sa makalawa
babalik na naman ako dito
sa lugar na madalas lubugan ng araw
sa upuan na madalas kong dinadalaw

titigan mo akong muli
kahit marami kang pighati
bigyan mo pa ako ng sandali
palitawin natin sa mukha mo
ang iyong dating ngiti.

si lois

2006-07-12T03:16:00.000-07:00

by chigo (from the compilations of "para kay diwata")

nalulungkot
pero marunong pa rin
ngumiti

matapang
pero may takot sa
Diyos

tahimik
pero marunong
makisama

taga tandang sora
pero sa gimmick
kahit saan, game sya!

si lois
ang kaibigan
ng diwata

siya ang ngiti
halakhak, karamay
at sandalan

magkaroon ka ng
tulad nya,
huwag ng bibitawan

si lois.(bow)

Every Little Thing

2006-06-29T20:51:00.000-07:00

by dishwalla

Let me in to see you in the morning light
To get me on and all along the tears they come
See all come, i want you to believe in life
But i get the strangest feeling that you've gone away
And when you find out who you are its too late to change
I wish i could be every little thing you wanted, all the time
Oh, i wish i could be every little thing you wanted, all the time, sometimes
Lift me up, just lift me up dont make a sound
Let me hold you up before you hit the ground
See all come, you say your alright
But i get the strangest feeling that you've gone away, you've gone away
And when you find out who you are too late to change
I wish i could be every little thing you wanted, all the time
Oh, i wish i could be every little thing you wanted,
every thing you wanted, all the time
Don't give me up
Don't give me up tonight
Soon nothing will right at all, salvation
Cause when you find out who you are too late to change
Too late to change
I wish i could be every little thing you wanted, all the time
Oh, i wish i could be every little thing you wanted
every little you wanted all the time
This time, every little thing you wanted all the time, oh
But i get the strangest feeling that you've gone away

shit.

2006-06-22T21:13:00.000-07:00

what's wrong with me?
normally, i'd feel better
after, say, a beer or two
or a puff from a stick
or a talk with a friend
and the usually effective,
is drowning myself in music.
normally, i'd feel better
after singing my lungs out.
weird, it is.
why the hell it ain't workin'
now that i badly need it?!
oh yeah, i forgot, the song
that i'm singin',
reminds me of you...

shit.

puso.fragmented.bigo

2006-06-20T00:54:00.000-07:00

[pardon the quirky 'taglish' lines. its needed to complete the poem. fyi, these poem has taken form through mixing and matching of collective excerpts from the lyrically rich tracks of fragmented, debut album of up dharma down. also other lines were taken from, giving birth, an armi song.]

....:::....

maybe i should let it loose
isang hangarin na di malaman
like stamps from letters never sent
All I wanted was a leap of faith

I refuse to tame what heaven bled
do you know the tricks of fire
maybe maybe maybe
learn the tricks of fire

when i see for myself
that i cant take it anymore
and im thinking am i too late
sana ay malaman mo

hear my confessions
lingering intentions
when i see you standing there
i start to want you here with me

when you looked me in the eye
di mo lang alam naiisip kita
liwanag sa kalawakan
there is so much truth in me

you gotta hear me say.. yeah
iniisip ka ngayon
sa tuwing ngumingiti ako
baka sakali lang maisip mo ako

you know i can't hold my breathe
but you keep me breathing
Keeps me sane
in some crazy race

ikaw ang iniisip
hanggang sa gabi
sana iyong mamamalayan
di mo lang alam

you are my sunshine
and my occassional rain
i dont have enough yet you make
me feel like i have everything

standing on the edge
between crazy and sense
i apologize but im
taking me with you

Will you keep me?
di nako makapagantay
learn the tricks of fire
and wash yourself with it

sand and the sea
meet in between
fire and ice
you and i

Now that you've found me
Where do we go from here?
Now that you've found me
nothing has to end

oh i wana live forever
complete me
I swear I belong
this is where I belong

ngunit nagtapos ang lahat
sa di inaasahang panahon
at ngayon ako'y iyong iniwan
luhaan sugatan di mapakinabangan

you wont say how i can stay
will you go or stay and grow
sa laro na ito ay
dapat bang sumuko

maybe yes or no
im not so good with words
should i stay
or should i go

matalino ka naman
so wont you please
sit this through
divine after every pain

if words are too few
to keep horizons in view
gotta wake you oh
i dont think u heard me

sa isang malikmata
nariyan wala ka na
huwag hayaang
biglang mawalay

isang umaga muli nang pagiisa
sinlamig na naman ng pasko
walang mayakap at makasama
tulog ang iyong mga kamay

puro sya na lang
sana'y ako naman
ako'y nandito lang
di mo lang alam

naghihintay sa'yo
nakapikit ka na ba
ako'y naghihintay kanina pa
i badly, badly need to burn

this is what you do to me
the tears are forming
flowing too soon
baka sakali lang maisip mo naman

inaasam makita kang muli
wag mong limutin ang nakaraan
sana'y bukas parang kahapon
huwag limutin ang nakaraan

there's nothing stoping pain
One day my heart will shroud
nothing stopping pain again
trapping itself

malayo man, malapit din
when i have come so far
when you've come so far
further, farther

cha 062006

shawarma rice

2006-06-05T20:26:00.000-07:00

by cha 060606

02 june 06
wooohooo! 15 minutes na lang at pwede na akong umalis sa opisina.

marami akong agenda ngayong biyernes. pupunta ako sa vtr na pakulo ni ra ang the gang para sa paggawa ng video parasa kanta ng up dharma down na oo. pupunta ako sa lord's o kaya ibonz para mag paprint ng imbitasyon ng kasal ng kuya ko. at pupunta ako sa saguijo para manood ng tugtugan ng terno bands.

tapos bigla kong naisip. bakit di ko kaya isama si lois? para may kasama akong maligaw sa mga lugar na di ko kabisado at para masaya ang byahe.

"lois may problema ko, kailangan kong magprint ng invitation kase hindi ako makasingit singit dito sa office. samahan mo ako dun sa pinagprintan nyo dati nung thesis natin.."

game naman si lois sa biglaang lakad namin.

umalis ako sa opisina ng 6:30 pm. gutom nako ngunit kailangan kong magmadali kaya ang binili ko na lang, dalawang bavarian funsize sa dunkin donuts. nguya sabay lunok.

nagmrt na ako pagdating sa mantrade para mas mabilis. grabe ang pila! sobrang haba na parang instant pancit canton. pinagkulot kulot para magkasya. at syempre siksikan, di mawawala ang mga manyakis na kung makatingin ay para bang hinuhabadan ka. sa lalakeng yun, suwestyon ko: mamamatay ka na!

inabot ng dalawang oras ang aking byahe. nakarating ako sa gma kamuning ng 8:00 pm. ika ni lois pagkababa ko mayroon na daw agad masasakyan doon papuntang philcoa. wala akong nahanap. lakad doon. lakad dito. wala talaga. nais ko nang magtaxi kaso kailangan kong magtipid kasi malapit na ang bertday ko. kaya nag tiis akong maghintay.

ang pinagtataka ko. hindi sumasagot si lois sa mga text ko. miscol ako nang miscol, wala parin. kaya tinawagan ko na. hindi daw sya nakapagload at brownout sa kanila. kanina pa daw sya sa philcoa. uunahin sana namin ang magpaprint ng imbitasyon sa quezon city kaya doon kami magtatagpo. pero dahil nga walang masakyan sinabi ko kay lois na pumunta na muna kami sa vtr dahil 9:00 pm na nung mga oras na iyon. hanggang 10:00 pm lang daw mghihintay sila ra. hinintay ko si lois sa isang madilim na sulok sa gma building. medyo nakakatakot ang lugar na iyon...

...at sa wakas dumating na si lois!

nagmrt kami papuntang araneta. at mula doon ay naghanap na ngtaxi. anu kaya ang meron? napakaraming tao! wala kaming masakyan na taxi. walang magawa, sumakay na lang kami ng jeep. nakarating kami sa furball, inc. ng sakto alas diyes ng gabi.
ni wala akong oras para makapag-suklay man lang. andungis dungis ng itsura ako. isipin nyo, nakaputi pa ako with matching sugod sa ulan, siksikan sa mrt at putik sa puting tsinelas. syempre si lois bilang kaibigan, wika nya'y maganda pa rin naman daw ako. naks.

pinag-fill up ako ng isang papel na nagtatanong ng mga bagay tulad ng vital statistics at bra size. anu daw? wala akong ideyakung ano ang mga sukat ko dahil hindi ako ang bumibili ngsarili kong bra. at kahit ang vitals. nakalimutan ko na! kaya nanghula na lang ako. nakow! sana tama.

at ito ang masaklap, sinabi sa akin ni ra na tamang informal lang na interview ang magaganap. hala! may camera at spotlights!bigla akong pinatayo sa harap ng camera at binigyan ng mgasitwasyon na i-aakto. habang tinitignan nila ako sa isang maliit na tv. shet di man lang ako nakapagprepare at pwede ba di naman ako marunong umarte noh.. tsk.. sana matanggap pa rin ako bagama't naging katatawa ang aking vtr.

tumambay saglit sa isang tindahan habang sumisipsip ng ice candy habang pinaguusapan namin kung tutuloy pa sa lord's. nais kong manuod ng gis sa saguijo at namimiss ko na rin ang up dharma down pero syempre gusto ko unahin ang imbitasyon dahil papatayinako ng nanay ko pag wala pa rin akong napprint.

kaya tumuloy pa rin kami. umalis kami sa cubao ng 11:00 pm. 12:00 am na kami nakarating sa up village kung saan matutuon ang lord's. naligaw ligaw pa kami. at nang sa wakas nahanap na.. sarado na daw sila at lunes na uli ang bukas.

f*ck! haaay... nabigo ako.

naglakad na lang kami ni lois pabalik. pinili naming maglakadpara makapagmuni muni sa buhay buhay. habang sabay kumakanta ng...

"i did my best.. but i guess my best wasn't good enough.. waaaaaaah"

para sa inyong kaalaman lang.. bukod sa bigo kaming magpaprint,pareho din kaming bigo sa kasalukuyang pag-ibig. pero ayos lang tawa lang... lakad... lakad.. hanggang sa makakita kami ng isang shawarma rice. ababu ang ngalan ng kainan. bigla kong naalala nahindi pa pala ako naghahapunan. aba ala una na pala ng umaga.

"krok...krok..." sabi ng tyan ko

kumain kami ng shawarma rice at isa pang ulam na maanghang na di ko na maalala ang pangalan. at ang nakakatuwa ang iced tea nila P7 lang isang baso. kaya nag bottomless kami na P30 lang! hala nagpakalasing na lang sa iced tea... sharap.

"i did my best.. but i guess my best wasn't good enough.. waaaaaaah"

naku may gig pa pala sa saguijo.. so tinext ko si pol kung meron ba silang passes (hehe para naman makatipid). nagreply sya at hindi daw sila tumugtug. outerhope ang pumalit sa kanila sabi naman ni ean.

aaay... sayang...

inom pa kami konti ng iced tea nang bigla naming mapagtanto ang baduy ng gimik namin. kaya nag internet kami para malaman kung may iba bang gig sa tabi tabi. kaso sa dami ng email at online napatagal ang internet.inabot kami ng 2:30 am. wala rin kaming nahanap na interesting kaya nagdesisyon na lang na umuwi na.

lakad... lakad... nang biglang nagtext sila jay at kervy. sila ang mga officemate ni cholo and bam na nakilala namin sa puerto. malapit lang daw sila kung nasaan kami. imeet daw nila kami sa jollibee philcoa. kaya wala kami nagawa at mineet namin sila.mga baliw hehe. kwentuhan. kumain. tumawa. at tumawa pa.

3:00 am na nang mga oras na iyon. naikwento ko ang aking dilemma tungkol sa pag print ng imbitasyon...

tanong ko, "sa inyo be kervs, pwede bang makiprint?" habang ngumunguya sajolly cheesy fries...

"hmmm pwede kasi nasa akin ang susi. ang problema inubos kanina ni cholo yung black ink..." sagot ni kervy

kaya inisip namin. isip... isip...

"pero kung gusto nyong sumugal, ayos lang samin. malay mo diba makahanaptayo ng ink" ika nila kervy at jay

"tara! sumugal tayo... i-try na rin natin" ang desisyon ko

sumakay kami ng taxi papunta sa makati. diretso sa opisina ng solar entertainment.

nakarating kami doon ng halos mag aalas kwatro na. tulog na ang mga guard. kinailangan pang akyatin ang bakod para gisingin sila.

pagpasok namin. ang unang tinignan ay kung may black pa bang ink para sa laser printer. hanap dito. hanap doon. wala talaga. nagikot ikot ako nang makita ko bigla ang isa pang laser printer na pang black lang.

"pwede ba ito?" tanong ko kay kervy

"pang black lang yan, cha"

"black lang naman kailangan ko. oks na to!"

"black lang ba? di mo naman sinabi! game!"

at nagtrabaho na kami. mabuti naman pala at dinala ko ang mga board ko. nakapagprint kami at konting design revisions habang nagsasound trip at nood ng tv. at friendster and check ng email. multi tasking!

mabilis naming na-cut lahat ng 130 pirasong imbitasyon. galing! natapos ito lahat ng eksakto ala singko ng umaga.

waaaah sa wakas tatanggapin na ako uli ng aking ina! may maipapakita na akong mga imbitasyon! makakauwi na ako! yeba! salamas sa inyo lois, kervyand jay... mwah! mwah! mwah!

palabas na kami ng gusali nang maisip ko na bagama't umaga na, hindi pa rin ligtas para sa akin ang umuwi. alanganing oras para sa isang taga malayong lugar. kaya naisip namin. magpalipas muna kaya kami ng oras sa baywalk?

"tara!" sabay sabay silang sumagot

nagtaxi kami papuntang baywalk...

at nang makarating na... wow. napaka-relaxing ng feeling. madami nang nagjojogging. at nagmumuni muni. ang malungkot na tanawin ng manila bay, bagama't kulay abo pa lang ang ang makikita, ay lalong nakapagbibigay ng kulay sa mga taong naglalakad at natutulog dito. mapapaisip ka kung anu ba ang mga istorya nila sa buhay.

at napakanta kami ng "mahal kong maynila..."

naglakad kami ng konti at sa wakas ay nakahanap ng magandang pwesto sa tabi ng tubig alat. mabuti na lamang at maraming dalang pagkain si kervy at naging busog ang aming pagninilay-nilay. dito rin namin inabuso na ang maliit na makinang dala ni lois, ang camera.

hala! pindot dito, pindot doon. para kaming mga baliw na tawa ng tawa at hindi
nauubusan ng posing at ngiti at emote at project sa harap ng camera.

hanggang sa umabot kami sa memory full. wag ka. ganun kadami ang mga picture namin. at marami pang binura sa lagay na yun.

basta tawa kami nang tawa... kahit sa maliit na bagay lamang ay natatawa.

hanggang inabot na kami nang liwanag. alas syete na pala ng umaga. oras na para umuwi.

nagsimula na kaming gumayak patungo sa taft. lakad... lakad... tawa... tawa...sa isang iglap nasa taft na kami.

kailangan ko na magpaalam, dahil lahat sila ay taga-north. nagpasalamat na ako, bumeso at nagpaalam na...sumakay sa jeep patungo sa terminal.

nakasakay na ako sa bus -- pagod dahil nagmula pa sa trabaho diresto sa gma cubao up village philcoa makati manila bay, puyat ng 26 oras, masakit ang mata dahil hindi pa nakakapagtanggal ng contact lens, malagkit dahil wala pang ligo, madungis dahil dumaan sa ulan at putik -- pero gayon pa man. itong paglalakbay na ito ay maraming pabaon sa akin na tuwa, tawa at pasasalamat.

lois - isa ka talagang tunay na kaibigan. laging maaasahan. laging nandyan. talagang kahit saan mapunta dinamayan mo ako. salamas! labshyu!

kervy - sa iyo, nakatagpo ako ng bagong kaibigan. nararamdamn ko, magiging makulay itong pagkakaibigan natin sa ngayon at sa hinaharap. salamas sa tulong mo!

jay - alam ko napagod ka, pero hindi mo kami iniwan. sa halip ay tinulungan mo pa at dinamayan. pasensya na pero salamas talaga!

alam ko nararapat lamang na ang maging pamagat nito ay "dose oras ng lakbay tawa," ngunit gusto kong magpasalamat sa shawarma rice at binigyan nya ako ng lakas at pag-asa. kung hindi dahil sa kanya ay namatay ako sa gutom. hehe

pahabol: 03 june 06 ala una ng hapon. ginising ako ng nanay ko mag ayos na daw ako dahil pupunta daw kami sa BAYWALK ng alas singko ng hapon. anu daw? napangiti na lang ako...

-end-

the crazy adventures of lois and cha -- vol.3

sapul!

2006-05-31T23:48:00.000-07:00

jaw down the floor
my body on halt
you came raging
came crashing
over me...

had no chance
to think or decide
had no choice
saw me in your eyes
in your eyes...

i am drenched
yet i want more
drown me again
crash into me again
again, again...

am i in trance?
loving this high
sudden bend of culture
stark change in me
for you, for us...

straight shot
right into my being
tumbling down
falling down
catch me...

dance with me
as i sing with you
sway with the wind
hear the lullabies
of my heart...

then you stopped

frosted heart
what went wrong?
where are you going?
don't leave me please
please don't...

blurry sight
smoke everywhere
water from my eyes
what did i do?
tell me...

i am confused
you are confused
is it someone else?
or other issues?
depart...

you left

had no chance
even to delay you
had no choice
but to wait in vain
i will wait...

in solitude
let me watch you
from afar
hear the lullabies
of my heart...

since i can't hold you
my little glances
bestow enough bliss
you were never mine
i know...

chung
060106

quite a dark day

2006-05-30T00:55:00.000-07:00

cha: i dont knw... my days lately are gloomy and dark.
cha: i need some light.
chigo: hhm... you've yet to be illuminated..
cha: i wish the sandman will take me and let me linger forever in my dreams
chigo: to be illuminated by someone or by something?
chigo: if it is someone.... pray ka lang.
cha: and if it is something?
chigo: but if it is something.. am sure you'll get it one time soon..
chigo: sooner than you can say HAVAIANAS!
cha: i dnt know if it is a 'thing'.. but what i know is that its is in abstract form
chigo: hmmm.. unexplainable ata yang abstract form UNLESS i will be on your mind and heart to anlayze it..
cha: 'isip at puso di magkatagpo' -- cha
chigo: 'pero sa ibang bagay nagkakasundo' -- chigo
cha: rarely, my friend. one of them always has to give way
chigo: and it if there's no way they can give and take? where will they end up, my dear?
cha: yea.. a perennial mystery -- where do we go from here?
chigo: exactly!

up dharma down at MEG magazine

2006-05-30T00:50:00.000-07:00

chigo: what can you say?
cha: sa?
chigo: sa naka sulat na article sa meg?
cha: ah un.. dko msyado dinibdib ung pag basa sa post pero.. obviously the writer's just doin his/her work. yes nagresearch sila pero they didnt went deeper.
chigo: ahh yah... exactly.
cha: kung baga superficial lang yung pagpapakilala nila sa udd. the way i see it.. they tried hard to achieve dreamy descriptions to match up with the others
cha: nanggaya lang ng look and feel. and for me, foul yung not crediting ean and carlos
chigo: i do felt that way too.
cha: haha actually was surprised dun sa mga sinabi ko ngayon.. diba sbi ko di ako masyado dinibdib tas nagflow nalang yung mga sinabi ko
chigo: hehe! it wasnt your heart who spoked. it was your mind.. i guess..
cha: no it was my heart not my mind
chigo: or both..
cha: yea both cguro..
cha: medyo wlang dating sakin ngayon mga bagay bagay.. iv read all the posts pero konti lng nireplyan ko.. pero if u ask me i can answer it, surprisingly, in a profound way

pagod na diwata

2006-05-30T00:24:00.000-07:00

ipikit ang iyong mga mata
ibaling sa tahimik na aura
huminga ng malalim
at isipin ang kantang "we give in.."

by chigo for cha
25may06

tamad

2006-05-30T00:15:00.000-07:00

gustong kumilos
ayaw gumalaw
daig ang namamalimos
nagaantay ng bulalakaw
ilang beses nang humikab
ilang beses nang kumurap
tinubuan na ng sapot
tinubuan na ng lumot

by chigo for cha
26may06

gig hoppin

2006-05-23T04:11:00.000-07:00

sabi nga ni armi: 'ghaleng!'

solb na solb ang aking sabado. galing ng tugtugan nila.

MALUFET

ganadong ganado! si ean excited pumalo pati tuloy sa mabagalna OO, aba anlakas ng hampas! nakakawindang. si pol kahit maysipon (uminom ng ascorbic acid at juice, ok?) nakatugtog parinesp nung sa layag na. si los gusto ko agawin yung gitara moayaw mo kse bitawan eh haha sabi mo nga lahat ng gig masaya.si armi syempre magaling. pero bakit nagbingibingihan ka atanung sinabi kong more? haha. kidding.

SAGUIJO

galing ng line up. gasolina. happy meals. shiela and the insects, etc.of course, twisted halo. i also saw diego mapa dun. sila zach andaia. the dharma boys. nakalimutan ko na yung iba... basta masaya!

hands down talaga ko sa musika ng pinoy!
cha

My Fragmented Roadtrip

2006-05-14T21:46:00.000-07:00

By Chigo

Recently, I went for a roadtrip from quezon city to angeles citypampanga. i brought my discman, cellphone, and my fragmented album.While at the bus at around 3:45pm bound to north express way, Iplaced, carefully, my fragmented cd in the discman and played it on.Started from the "india- esque" introduction of Layag, the view fromoutside the heat-stricken weather was eventually connected with thetune swayed in my ears. As if my eyes was electrifying some sort ofimaginary movements from the sound and simultaneously with theweather, envorinment, moments and the flow of the ride.Then here comes Track 2-Maybe. The bus swiftly gunned its speed flatof 90 kph and I feel it was going up. My eyes are locked on aseemingly endless flowing line of electrical wires. Black wiresuntangled and smoothly currents while the stead-fast "Maybe"collaborates intensely. As if I was chased by the wires.While the bus speeds slowly, the road went to slippery wet. It startedto rain. Again, followed by the lazy sound of "Lazy Daisy", the raindrops with coordination. From slow and crisp line of rain showers tothick and thundering drops as if we went on for a car wash. It wasrain heavier than I expected. We were at the boundery of Bocaue exit.The dim and dark moments of heavy pouring rain suddenly went from greyto off-white then ends to a sunshine-y day. We had just passed by thedark clouds above. Quite a long dark clouds possessing such rain.While enjoying to watch the remains of the rain in the window, washedaway by the speeding bus and the sunlight, the "chinese" preamble of"We give in sometimes" created a safe state of balance in my veins andcaught myself in "relax mode".Everytime Armi Millare do that key of D preface of "Oo", my musclesare geared up for another jazzy funk strokes. Nevertheless, Icontained myself and contented with the tappings of my hands from mylaps and short head bangs while the music was on. And of course, whatwas the use of my feet if I can't move it for the contagious beat of"Oo". I enjoyed the small minutes of instrumentals (Fragmented & Brokenglasses & screaming turtles. It can simply says "o pahinga na muna.""...the enemies of juuuuune..." Still in relaxed-mode, this track 7slows the flow of blood more. I glanced the setting sun on my farleft. But unfortunately, those people who seated on the left sidepulled down their curtains. It seems people are so unpleasantlyincontentented with the sun's raidiance these days. I couldn't blamethem. Two months of summer sun was indeed a very ghastly experience tothem. I caught a passanger exclaimed "Ibaba mo nga yan, ang init init e."Now came Sleeptalk. While listening, there was a word that caught upmy full attention. INFIDELITY. The word just got passed my memorycells that as if it was a key. It opened up a recent conversationbetween a very friend of mine who was in need of my counsel. A marriedman with one kid. Infidelity was a clear picture while listening tohis explainations. Infidelities... Infidelities... It distracts me. AmI also bound to have such infidelities when I get married? Pag agos. I can never forget this song. It was a respite song for meand my thesis1 a few months ago. On with the road, I'm thirty minutes away from my planned destinationplace. still the sun is thick. I can notice the windshields were driedfrom the fight against the thick rain earlier. Blended by theslick-stylish-funk-hypnotic sound of malikmata. I was definitely drawnby the mood. I momentarily thought about "someone". Someone from mypast and present. Then I closed my eyes.As soon as the prelude of"TheWorldIsOurPlaygroundAndWeWillAlwaysBeHome" came off the surface ofmy mind, slowly... slowly... I opened my eyes. I was thinking of myown playground on my early years. Make that six year old. As the songprogresses, I remembered someone again. She was onced my sunshine andmy occassional rain. The Bus came in a halt. I went forward to werethe entrance and exit of the bus were always located and I descendedbehind the bus door. Where do I go from here? keep playing... keep playing...I continued to walk from a very hot ray of sunlight. It was as if thesun was mad at me. It stinged my skin deeply. Well I did not care.After all, Hiwaga was on...Huwag limutin ang nakaraan.

Guys and Gals, share some of your stories with your albums lately!

muni muni

2006-05-11T20:06:00.000-07:00

tumahimik

nakiramdam

natulala

nasaan na?

nariyan ka pa ba?

lumingon

kanan

kaliwa

taas

baba

nasaan na?

nariyan ka pa ba?

hingal

hikahos

hininga

naririnig ko

ang sigaw ng puso mo

nariyan ka pa ba?

napailing

di makita

pumikit

sa panaginip sumilip

bakit nariyan ka?

luha

langoy

titig

isip

ang iyong mga mata

bakit wala nang kislap?

ahon na

nalilito

baha

sa isip

nalulunood sa sariling luha

hintay

kapit

bilis

abutin

ililigtas kita

bakit lumalayo ka?

naghihintay

nagtataka

ano ba

nalulunod na

hayaan mong tulungan kita

tenga

makikinig

puso

uunawain

sabihin mo lang

kung paano matutulungan

nandito

ako

kahit

kailan

gusto kita sagipin

pero pilit kang lumalayo

ilabas

sama ng loob

hinanakit

tangis

eto na ang aking kamay

iabot mo na ang sa iyo

cha
050606

keso talks

2006-05-04T03:56:00.000-07:00

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:13:25 PM): watyuthink of this: malakas maniwala ang manhid sa wala.

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:13:51 PM): tama ba intindi ko? na mas madaling maniwala ang mga taong wlang paniniwla?

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:14:33 PM): manhid ka lang naman e. pero aware ka dun sa pinaniniwalaan nila/mo.

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:14:50 PM): TAMA!

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:17:40 PM): pero meron din naman talagang ayaw nilang maniwala. kasi nag bubulag bulagan lang sila.

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:18:14 PM): hmm pede din,, pero prang mas gsto ka yan hehe

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:19:39 PM): share something with me, ms.cha... what would be that one thing you don't believe but it exists?

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:20:46 PM): hmm

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:22:02 PM): wla cguro..

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:23:13 PM): you dont believe in love at first sight? pero existing diba? hehe

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:23:19 PM): naahh... hehe.. subjective naman ang tingin ng tao sa love e..

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:23:58 PM): aaah pwede onga no. does it really exist? i dnt blv so

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:25:11 PM): hhmm... ask yourself po.. based on your past relationships.. does it really existed before?

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:25:20 PM): no

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:26:07 PM): e sa courtships? do you believe in courtship stage? and still that stage exist.

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:27:12 PM): i blv that everything starts w attraction. nt love at first sight. yes i blv in courtship

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:27:32 PM): ahh nice answer.

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:28:31 PM): Love is blind. do you believe in that saying?

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:30:38 PM): maybe.. mortal love is vague. sometimes, bcoz of 'love' we tend to bend our principles, beliefs, lifestyle, morals, values, etc... the clearest love is God love.

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:31:56 PM): ang galing. only a few people who answers that way when i asked them about love. saludo na ako sayo.. lab na kita! hahaha!! joke..

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:32:21 PM): pero kidding aside... yah. i believe in that. kaya nga God is Love and Love is God.

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:34:10 PM): hehe. steg. kht ganito ako. seryoso akong tao noh.

so_n2him (5/4/2006 4:34:43 PM): exactly. i am pro-GOd

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:37:12 PM): haha! i've always known you as a light person outside and serious in the inside.

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:58:24 PM): share ko lang... lam mo ba.. nung bumili ako ng udd fragmented, yung acknowledgment ni polyap ang nabasa kong kakaiba!

chigo adona (5/4/2006 4:59:15 PM): then i went to alabang town center gig para lang i commend personally yung sinulat niyang yun!!

so_n2him (5/4/2006 5:00:58 PM): onga sobra. kya nga among sa four, kay paul ako most drawn to

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:01:47 PM): exactly.

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:02:16 PM): ako mas humahanga ako dun sa way he writes his pieces. astig!

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:03:47 PM): kaya nga i was surprised to know na meron pa lang nakapansin nung acknowledgement niya na rather than me... and it was you.

so_n2him (5/4/2006 5:04:49 PM): yea sobra. mnsan nttwa nlng ko sa srili ko. kc halos araw araw ko bnbasa ung lyrics and credits nila. deciphering, disecting, reading between the lines, ung style ni armi and pol in writing, tone, feel.. lahat pinapansin ko

so_n2him (5/4/2006 5:06:37 PM): dmo npansin sa first tula ko.. sbi ko 'sana ako'y makata rin shet'.. tska ung sa 2nd 'nahahatak lapit pa para akong hinihila ng iyong mga talinhaga iyong sapantaha nais kong masilip laman ng puso't isip

so_n2him (5/4/2006 5:08:55 PM): gusto kong malaman ang mga storya sa mga sinulat nya

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:12:36 PM): yah! kasi every song has its own personal story..

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:13:19 PM): napapansin ko sa tula mo yun. pero gusto ko sayo manggaling yun confirmation

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:13:33 PM): mahirap kasing mag assume e.. hehe..

so_n2him (5/4/2006 5:13:48 PM): tama.

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:25:36 PM): sige.. out na muna ako ms.cha! thanks for that very intelectual chat kanina! i'll be expecting more of that tom. haha! anyway.. im glad to have known you. (cheeezzzy!) haha! but honest!

so_n2him (5/4/2006 5:26:37 PM): hmm.. hehe cge konti pa at pde ko na ishare ang blog ko syo!

chigo adona (5/4/2006 5:27:35 PM): haha! okay.. pero i would still respect your decision about privacy. okay lang yung ganito.. step by step..

so_n2him (5/4/2006 5:27:47 PM): ayt!

embracing the dharma II

2006-05-02T22:59:00.000-07:00

lasing
hinehele
himig ng pagibig
agos ng emosyon

lumulutang
lumilipad
sa tuwing naririnig
pulso ay pumipintig

adik na
walang sawa
sa bawat tugtog
panibagong karanasan

naghihintay
nag-aabang
pakulo ng banda
laging may sorpresa

millare

nanunuot
bumabalot
boses na rumaragasa
baka tamaan, humanda

malamig
bumubuhos
parang naliligo
sa apoy at yelo

tahimik
misteryosa
matipid sa salita
nangungusap na mata

luha
hiwaga
hikbi mo'y akin
tangis mo'y akin rin

yap

malalim
mausok
tunay na talentado
minsan mahirap matarok

pikit mata
damang dama
kapag tumutugtog
tumitindig ang balahibo

nahahatak
lapit pa
para akong hinihila
ng iyong mga talinhaga

iyong
sapantaha
nais kong masilip
laman ng puso't isip

mayor

hampas
hagupit
mga palong mabilis
halos walang mintis

naglalaho
sa hangin
kamay na matulin
di akalaing kayang gawin

musika
trabaho
dumadaloy sa iyong dugo
nahihilo umiikot nahihilo

hinay lang
kalma lang
ingatan ang katawan
para kang isang chubibo

tañada

naglalayag
lumalangoy
sisirin na ang dagat
gitara mong dumadaloy

harana
panatag
alingawngaw sa isip
hanggang sa pagtulog

sige lang
masaya
walang takot sumubok
mga eksperimentong tunog

kwento
diwa
naipapahiwatig
kahit walang salita

dharma

apat na mortal
pinagbuklod ng musika
ito ang kanilang tirahan
lumalabas sa bawat hininga

cha 050306

nunal at tenga

2006-04-24T20:31:00.000-07:00

nanghihina
nanginginig
ano bang nagawa?

isa pang dagok
sige kaya pa
marami pang luha
kaya pang umiyak

sige wala naman
akong magagawa
kung masaya ka
pag nasasaktan ako
sige ayos lang
isa pang dagok
sige kaya pa
marami pang luha
kaya pang umiyak
nagtatanong
nalilito
binigay lahat
ang lahat lahat
ngunit bakit ganito

nagtiwala
nagmahal
bakit kailangan
masaktan
ikaw naman
tinuring na kapatid
inalagaan
hindi iniwan
di ko akalain
masasaktan mo rin ako
bakit kailangan
masaktan ako
nang paulit ulit
sana di na lang
nakilala
pero gayon pa man
nagpapasalamat ako
sa binigay niyong sakit
hayaan nyo sa susunod
ako'y mag-iingat
di na magpapaloko
di na magtitiwala
sa mga taong tulad niyo
pero kung darating uli
na masasaktan ako
yakang yaka na
kasi tinuruan nyo ko
maging matatag
isa pang dagok
sige kaya pa
marami pang luha
kaya pang umiyak

chung
042506

My beloved Jedi

2006-04-19T23:23:00.000-07:00

In this universe, we are dust
Moved by some magnetic thrust
We are meteors that eventually crashed
Into each other, dizzy lights with us.

You are timid but valiant and all
With good intentions and principles
I am an alien in this dwelling
Tasks from my kingdom is what I’m doing

Though, we’re of different worlds
You’re always there to protect me
With a draw of your glowing sword
Run they go, away they flee!

Never alone, with you by my side
I eat, I sing, I laugh with you
No one wants to end this joyful ride
Oh, I think I have fallen for you

The stars of love whirling around
Suddenly there’s a musical sound
We were ready to kiss in joy
But c3po came and said, ‘ahoy!’

This whimsy talking metal
Said my King has called for me
I am to go back to my kingdom
No more delays, no more please

Alas! dreamy eyes and holding hands,
Laughter and fun, soon will be gone
Tears forming, hopes beneath the sand
Wishing for a ray of light from the sun

No matter how much love I felt
Towards you my beloved jedi
No matter how much tears I shed
I am going back to my king and rabbi

As Juliet have said to romeo
Parting is such a sweet sorrow
Someday this love that we lost
Will be found again tomorrow

chung
042006

trigger happy

2006-04-19T20:07:00.000-07:00

saguijo managment is right. igan d' bayan has thrown brutal, choleric words (which i wonder why) against saguijo. actually everything about that night -- from the security guy in barong to the punk kids and most esp to the other bands that played aside from dharma.

yes, i am noone and maybe im in no place to comment on this. but to you igan d' bayan, please don't think that your music preference is always the way to go, that everybody should be apostles of your taste, that it is cool to spit dirty adjectives against other musikeros.

ironic. you write about music, yet you do not know the most important thing about it. it's respect.

cha

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FROM SAGUIJO.COM

They say that there is no such thing as bad publicity. SaGuijo is aMusic venue that is open to the public. As such, we are susceptible topublic scrutiny and commentary. For nearly two years, a staggeringmajority of reviewers have had nothing but kind words to say about ourlittle community. Whether they be fans who channel their thoughts intoan internet blog or well-respected journalists doing what they dobest, we have always gotten a kick out of reading their respectiveopinions. When someone has a suggestion about a legitimate shortcomingon OUR part, we always strive to find a reasonable remedy. This iswhat is called "constructive criticism." On multiple occasions, wehave actually taken these comments and modified the venue. And whynot? You people, who support us on a nightly basis, deserve this. Aswe have constantly reiterated, this venue is as much YOURS as it isOURS. That being said, we will quite literally go the extra mile if itmeans helping the Pinoy Music scene.Sadly, the feedback isn't always so constructive. On the rareoccasions when someone "attacks" saGuijo without any justification, wetry our best to simply turn the other cheek. As much as it pains us todo so, we even keep the printed ones on file. Why? We don't know…otherthan it seems cowardly to throw away the "hate mail." Baselesscriticism is, after all, the breakfast of champions. HOWEVER, someattacks are just so uncalled for that our credo of "live and let live"simply will not suffice. In the March 31, 2006 edition of ThePhilippine Star, you, Igan D'Bayan, decided to use your"Audiosyncrasy" column for a malicious personal rant. Whereas the bulkof the piece was a glowing assessment of the band Up Dharma Down(something they have ALWAYS been worthy of), we took exception to yourcomments regarding our patrons, our bands and our staff. In yourdefense, we know that journalists have the God-given right to scribblewhatever might strike their fancy. Freedom of the Press is somethingthat was once denied our people. Who are we to impose limitations onwhat someone has to say about us? The problem with your line ofreasoning (and it IS a PROBLEM) is that it hits below the belt. Werealize you were just trying to do your job. But this doesn't give youunrestricted license to belittle people who were trying to do THEIRS.You are entitled to your opinions but WE have the right to defendourselves:"At cramped Saguijo, Armi's voice jets, pirouettes and thrashes about."Much as we think our patrons and performers deserve more breathingspace, we do not have a bottomless pit of cash to dip into. Sellingout to some corporate entity was never an option. It would be abetrayal of the ideals with which we began this undertaking. We are ahole in the wall…that just happens to feature the BEST Filipino bandsplaying the BEST Filipino Music. Nothing more. Nothing less."Before The band played, my girlfriend and I had to endure a crappyMurakami-namedropping and I Melt With You-stealing band with aturntablist (as passé as Incubus), as well as an equally crappy bandfeaturing a singer with an anorexic voice box and a guitarist whosedelay stomp box is switched to 11. (He thought he could wow the crowdwith clichéd major scale solos.) The people quadrupled when it was Updharma Down's turn. Ah, music as magnet."Isn't it lazy to bash THREE bands just to make ONE look good? Wouldn'tyou concede that your assessment of the "crappy" bands is a matter ofpersonal taste? There are two major problems with how you built yourargument. Number one, you insulted these groups IN PRINT. Number two,you didn't respect them enough to at least NAME them. Granted, thismay have led to further humiliation. But at least give your readersthe opportunity to come to their own conclusions! As it stands, youdenied everyone that option. If you think Totti is such a visionary,then how can you account for your negative comments regarding HIShand-picked bands? While the gig in question wasn't a Terno event, thelineup was primarily comprised of Terno loyalists. Mouthing off toyour friends is one thing. Publishing your opinion in a NATIONALNEWSPAPER is an ENTIRELY different matter. If you want to passjudgment, then at least have the decency to PROVE your dismissivegeneralizations."A digression: We had to stand on chairs since we couldn't see athing, what with the mass of bodies in front of the stage. That irkeda fascistic security guy in a barong who berated the `culprits.'Friedrich Nietzsche called this sort of behavior "Will to Power." Givea guy some semblance of authority and he acts like the master of theuniverse. Imagine being asked to behave like sheep in a rock n' rollclub."That self-righteous, smug air of "I'm better than you so you shouldknow your place" bullshit is PRECISELY why Metro Manila's workingclasses HATE those of us with a little bit of money in our pockets.Maybe you were too drunk at the time but what the "fascistic securityguy in a barong" was TRYING to do was protect the people around you.What if you fell off that chair and broke your silly neck? What aboutthe kids who knew well enough NOT to stand on those chairs? Will YOUtake responsibility for THEIR injuries? Or would you be sitting infront of your computer, complaining about saGuijo's "crappy" chairs?If you found the guard to be rude, then you should have taken it upwith a manager. That's what they're there for. Instead, you let yourpride get the best of you. If you didn't want to get the guy fired ordrive down saGuijo's attendance (and thus implicitly direct the kidsto a Rock club that YOU favor), then WHY would you single the man out?You printed YOUR side of the story. But what about "the fascisticsecurity guy?" Does HE have a newspaper in which he can publish hisaccount? Does HE get to defend himself? He told you to get down…andwhat did you do? YOU FLASHED YOUR PRESS CREDENTIALS IN HIS FACE ANDASKED HIM WHETHER HE KNEW WHO YOU WERE. Wouldn't you acquiesce thatyou are being just a LITTLE hypocritical? How can you accuse others ofabusing their powers while you, in turn, are guilty of the same crime?"Although Saguijo is more like a rocked-up apartment frequented byreal rockers and kids who think The Libertines is a punk band."Attacking US is one thing. But don't you ever…EVER…mock the kids whofrequent Rock clubs. Where do you get off biting the hand that feedsyou? Who do you think are reading your articles? You should APPLAUDthese kids for finding a life outside of cell phones and shoppingmalls. If you find THEIR taste in Music to be inferior to your own,then perhaps you should try and "guide" them instead of writing themoff (literally AND figuratively). Isn't that what a Music journalistis SUPPOSED to do?Oh, and by the way, Up Dharma Down have been playing at saGuijo sinceour very first months of operation…NEARLY TWO YEARS AGO. If you didyour research, you'd know that Totti's "Terno Au Go Go" night was heldregularly at this venue. When the crowd they drew got to be too big,we mutually decided that they deserved a larger performance spaceelsewhere. And as for the kids who think "The Libertines is a punkband," well, they knew about these two entities LONG before yourfeature article. Give them a little bit more credit. They aren't justPART of the "scene." They ARE the scene.This whole thing could have been avoided. What you seem to haveforgotten is that being a published writer gives you a publicplatform. But your journalistic power comes at a cost. You areexpected to exercise a certain amount of RESPONSIBILITY. At the veryleast, please try to acknowledge that YOUR opinion is not the ONLYopinion. The things you write down can hurt people. One of them MAYchoose to retaliate. Let us assure you, it WON'T be us. We're not outto threaten you. But we also feel a certain protectiveness over thiswhole "band" scene. We're in it for the Music and we'd like to thinkthat your motivations are very similar. If we, within thealready-marginalized scene, cannot work together, then how do we standa chance? We have never tried to make an adversary out of you. Whywould YOU make an enemy of US?
-saGuijo Management-

embracing the dharma

2006-04-18T02:55:00.000-07:00

halina’t tayo’y sumilip
sa isang bandang malupit
tugtugan ay hindi pilit
datung ay laging sulit

laging hiling sana maulit
saan man sumapit kahit saglit
kahit ano mang oras
alaala nila ay madikit

mga himig ay umuukit
mga diwang may sipit
tagos ng salita at tono
tila may kurot sa puso

nagsusumigaw, namimilit
mensahe mo sana’y makamit
kahit pa sobrang init
kahit pa abot singit!

ang binibining bokalista
pag nagsimula nang bumirit
talo ang huni ng pipit
tiyak di ‘to kaya ni matet

mga kanta nya’y may galit
humuhugot sa sariling sakit
sa likod ng bawat kanta
mga karanasan na mapait

ang singkit na bahista naman
dumdumdundumdun ang sabi niya
baho ay siyang kinakalabit
habang sa yosi humihit-hit

sa mga tagahanga, mabait
sa mga kaibigan, makulit
mga himig tila nasa langit
sana ako’y makata rin, shit

saliw sa awit, sabay hagupit
tagatambol naman ang hihirit
pulso ng banda ang kanyang beat
tila mga palo ay may ngitngit

isa sa dahilan kaya masikip
sa mga dilag para siyang meat
kahit sulyap lang gustong kumupit
ang mga palda punit na ang slit

ang tahimik na gitarista
nakikipagtalik ba sa gitara?
tunog nya’y parang gumuguhit
panimula ay parang sumisirit

sa entablado, sya’y humahapit
mga manonood namimilipit
kilabot sa stilong pumupunit
mga effects ay nangangalit

kaya mareng armi, just sing it.
pareng pol, tuloy lang sa kalabit.
pareng ean, show ‘em your hagupit.
pareng los, ibigay ang strings na hapit!

patapos na ang aking tula
hiling ko’y naibigan niyo sana
magkikita pa tayo ulit
sa mga gig nilang malupit

shit.

cha
041406

kampana

2006-04-12T03:23:00.001-07:00

sana nawa'y
sa aking paglalakbay
sa di madaling buhay
ikaw ang kasabay
anu man ang mangyari
di sana tayo magkahiwalay
pumuti man ang buhok
kutis man ay kumulubot
ang aking tanging hiling
isang araw ako'y magising
sa aking pagkahimbing
hawak mo ang aking kamay
makitang ikaw pa rin ang kapiling
sana nawa'y sa aking pagtanda
ikaw pa rin ang kasama
sa hirap at ginhawa

chung
091005

adik

2006-04-12T03:18:00.000-07:00

adik ako
pake mo
di ko matarok
ano ba,mausok!
mahal ko siya
adik sa kanya
pero minsan masakit
pwede bang pumikit?
minsan maasim
minsan matamis
pero kaya pa
ganyan talaga
palawakin ang unawa
pahabain ang pasensya
anu ba tong
iniinarte ko?
wala naman
masakit lang ang tiyan
sana dika magsawa
o aking asawa
klangan akong gabayan
baka bumigay ng tuluyan
pero wag mag aalala
solid tayong dalawa
si gwapong bong
si gandang chung
poreber yan!
tinataga ko yan!
bakit kamo?

.. kc adik ako.

chung
10192005

sayang

2006-04-07T03:37:00.000-07:00

sa pag idlip ng liwanag
tanaw ang bilog na buwan
karagatang walang pangpang
pagibig na walang hanggan

kasama kang nangarap
kasandal sa tuwa at luha
ngunit dagok ng selos
himig sa puso ay natapos

minsan kang minahal ng labis
minsan kong binigay ang buhay
minsan kang minahal ng labis
inalay sayo buong puso
sinayang mo...

nagsara na ang puso ko
sa mga paliwanag mo
ang tamis ay naging tangis
mapait na luha..
mapait na luha ang tumapos

ano nang nangyari
sa pangako mo sakin
na di mo ako sasaktan

sinayang mo...
ang pag-ibig ko

no shores

2006-04-07T03:22:00.000-07:00

liberally and without reproach
i have no idea where it's coming from
what i did, i cannot remember
to deserve a gift in abstract form

you offer something
i am not familiar with
something so deep
that i find hard to fathom

to any mortal, i've never loved
like that before
yours seem to have
no sign of any shore

all i have poured
to my Lord and Creator
He is everything to me
i'm ready to vanish like vapor

i think you know, this is your third shot
still you're very sanguine, i can see that
munching on a bunch of chocnut*
on your back, you deserve a pat

you've disclosed your love in many ways
shown, texted, and inserted in jokes
you've even announced in TV ART**
that you're not losing any hope!

romeo, your love, i can see
is way beyond the ordinary
but your morning will be delayed
don't know what to do, i'm sorry

as i've said, my life was surrendered.
every breath and move i make,
i am to ask consent
and walk with Him by faith

to be neutral in everything
i have to be
obeying His will
is important to me

i don't want someone i chose
to follow my own will, i won't
i want the one He picked
while waiting, i'll be meek

when my knight comes
time will freeze
i'll call him GPC
(God's Perfect Choice, that is)

maybe you're the package
that i am waiting for
or perhaps you're expected
at another girl's door

why don't you "delight yourself
in the Lord, and He'll give you
the desires of your heart"...
this will help you through

chung
19july2003

untitiled

2006-04-06T23:13:00.000-07:00

hindi ko alam
kung napapansin mo
hindi ko alam
kung halata na ba ako
bakit laging
tulala at nag-iisip
tinititigan lang
ang plates at thesis
bakit araw-araw iniisip
kung pano sasabihin sayo
bakit laging nagmamadali
at parang lumalayo
kasi bawat araw
na ikaw ay nakikita
tila kilos ko
unti-unting nahahalata
balita ko
bibitaw ka na
pwes di ako
papayag
tatakbo ako
para saluhin ka
kahit madaganan pa ako
at least nasalo kita
akala mo siguro
mahalaga ka lang sakin
na wala nang iba
lagpas pa sa mahalaga
akala mo lang wala
pero meron
meron
MERON!
meron akong
sasabihin sayo
di ko lang agad sinabi
alam mo naman ako
sa dami nang beses
na sinabi mo sakin to
ngayon sigurado na'ko
gayundin ako
nais kong malaman mo
ito'y buong puso ko
Chris, mahal kita
sabihin mo...
huli na ba?

chung
23AUG03

do i need a reason

2006-04-06T23:10:00.000-07:00

is it the things you've given me?

...it's not

is it the things you've done for me?

...nope

is it the things you've sacrificed for me?

...not really

is it the tears you have shed for me?

...no

is it all the "love u's" you've said to me?

...not naman

is it the fact that you can give me tall children?

...di noh!! :P

is it the common interests that we share?

...di rin

then what?

it's you...

it's you that i love...

there are no other reasons... only you

it's you that i love and want to love

for the rest of my life.

it's with you, i want to tie the knot...

but...

do you know all these?

sadly,

you

do

not...

chung
21AUG03

stellar

2006-04-06T22:54:00.000-07:00

the curtains of the night descend

gracefully over a crimson sky

and crisp twilight linger

over the place where day expired

the battened sky blankets the eve

as it enshrouds itself with stars

to the serenade of the winds whistle

flirting with the night that's ours

and you frolic across the span

of heaven plastered in tranquil sky

the star that sparkled in brilliance

as stellar as an angel's eye

and so i marveled from afar

the beacon of my blissful awe

that radiated down this fool

who's driven of what he saw

and i submit to wishful thinking

that i would be able to seize

even a finger of your beam's hand

or a brush of your ray's kiss

still..i will marvel from afar, and wait

in joyful hope, that you would see

this mortal who loves you, brilliant star

and you'd decide to..fall for me.

ginobjorn

062601

LAST DAY OF AUGUST

2006-04-06T22:51:00.000-07:00

I. If I could keep the rain from falling...
If I could gather light from the heavens...I would
And make a tapestry of moments you most desire
Then I could make you love each day of your life

II. If I could wake each morning up... to my hello
If I could borrow the angel's halo, I'd crown it on your head
If I could propel you to the sky... and give you flight
Then I could make you love each day of your life

Pre-chorus:
If I could... I would

Chorus:
I would spread the whole horizon to give you space
For you to plaster constellations, and I would trace
The letters of your name across this interface
Of light and darkness that emboss your grace

III. If I could catch each tear that crawls down your face
If I could magnify your world, so you could taste
The euphoric state of life, and what it defines
Then I can make you love each day of your life

IV. And soon the rain would stop falling, and you won’t need me, no
And you’d wish you had me away, away
And maybe the letters to trace would soon die
I’d still wish I could make you love each day of your life

***BJORN*082901***
project for Caryatid

UNFORGOTTEN

2006-04-06T22:49:00.000-07:00

Forget the day that you first met
Forget how dazed you were back then
And to her eyes, yours were set
Forget you looked at her again

Forget the way she made you glad
Though not trying much, she does
Forget the moments that you had
Forget you tried to make it last

Forget the way that her face beams
Forget the sparkle in her eyes
Forget the jokes you used to share
In lame attempt to see her smile

Forget the way she makes you weak
Forget the way she looked at you
Forget the things you used to seek
Forget the reasons why you do

Forget the nights you spent to cry
Forget how you pain to each teardrop
Forget how it eases to her each line
Forget the way she made it stop

Forget you wrote her poems and songs
Forget the music that she brings
Forget you cared to what was wrong
Forget you gave her everything

Forget why you loved her so
Forget why your nights turned day
I'll be fine in time, I know
So long as I forget the ways

Forget you ever wrote this poem
Forget you used it to exhaust
The stain that dwells inside your soul
Forget the things that now are lost

----Björn083101----

Psuedoeuphoric

2006-04-06T22:45:00.000-07:00

The coldest night reign with your coldest words
As I exhaust my constrained thoughts to an empty space between us
The severed sky hide the clouds in my eye
And I conceal my breaking voice, amorphing phase, with a hollow smile

PreChorus:
Don't ask me why...
Coz I still don't know
Let my tears say it all

Chorus:
Don't leave me hanging from this pseudoeuphoric feeling
Augment the chances of making my life worthwhile
Don't play pretend, say what you oughta say
Please... because I was not built this way
Psuedoeuphoric

A cloudless night, still I begged for rain to fall
As it might contain a dust of your existence of losing faith
I wait in vain, I drive myself insane
And I regret ever falling and daydreaming to diminishing stage.
(Prechorus+Chorus2x)

Wipe me off your life, if you think I don't have a chance
Make my life worthwhile, if you would... give a shot
(Chorus)

.**BJÖRN**

Blistered Sun

2006-04-06T22:31:00.000-07:00

You were the bearer of my better half
You were the light that I long to have
You were the whisper that I loved to hear
You were the angel...
And you shined down, shined down on...

You made the longing stronger to hold
You made me feel like I had it all
You made me love you more than I should
You were my breathe...
And I reached for you, reached for...

Chorus:
But you turned your back on me
As I crawl... crawl to your direction
And you chose to shine on another path
You beamed on him, beamed on him
...But faded to me

You were the pain that shattered me whole
You stained the day, and I lost control
You made the falter easy for me
I fall away...
And you are to blame...
(CHORUS2x)

Adlib+Outro:
My blistered sun...
Now that you're gone
I fall away
Let me die to where you failed to shine on... me
My blistered sun.

**BJÖRN**